Thursday, March 01, 2012

when people "delete" you from their lives...

It is times like these where I wish there weren't any social medias or means of communication, and if people wanted to get a hold of you, well, they would call you or write to you. I still feel "connected" to friends who don't leave nearby, or friends I used to be close with...
And when you live in a world of social book of faces, well, when all of a sudden you drop 12 people, chances are... they all didn't "deactivate" their profiles.... they deleted you.

"THEY DELETED ME BUT KEPT 30 of our MUTUAL FRIENDS?!"

Call me stupid, but I just don't understand that. Should I take it personal? UM YES! Even though, I shouldn't or people say, "it's just Facebook." Yea, thanks... you're not the one being deleted by a friend who you went to their wedding & spent money on a gift, and used to be good friends with....
And you ask in a joking manner, "do you hate me?" and they reply- no I do not, I'm just annoyed by things you post/tag me in all the time...
WHAT???!
[Even though I don't do that much at all now...]

Thanks... though, there is something called "subscribe" if you want to see my updates; or un-clicking it so you don't see them... since I'm "so annoying" and all.


I don't really understand. One of my biggest "worries" is that people don't like me, or that they don't want to be my friend-- so they're just being nice to my face.
I sit here, wondering...
Who can I really trust?? The people I've seen recently, 'did they really want to see me or hang out with me? OR were they just being nice?' Especially if a mutual friend deleted me, yet is still their good friend, but don't want to be friends with me? And a mutual friend hangs out w/them all the time, but avoids me?? Or when I try to ask an old good friend out, and they don't respond to me, but everyone else?
Am I really that annoying??

Do I even have any real friends [besides the couple I KNOW are]???

It just really hurts.

I listened to a song earlier today, a 'rap' song; and he said our security is in Christ, the only one I can fully trust in my life is Christ- - he won't let me down... even when small, rather silly things like this happen. It hurts when people reject you for no apparent reason... and sometimes, they don't really see how their actions affect other people... I don't know if it is that they don't really care, or that they don't think their actions will impact you that much.

I don't know what else to say. . .
All I know is, that I have Christ... & he won't ever leave me nor forsake me, even when people "delete" me from their lives like I never existed.


Yeah True Security is found in Christ
You don’t have to search for it in ourselves
Or in that dude or in that female
Or acceptance from men
True security is found in Jesus Christ
The only place to find it
Praise the Lord that he died
And we can come to him
Find our security in him
Find our everything in him
Only in Christ

-Trip Lee, 'True Security"